This is the way it should be.

Ever since I was a little girl, I had my personal fairytale all planned out.

The story I had planned for myself was the perfectly cliche story that's in all the movies.

My once upon a time would begin (at a ball, or anywhere I could dress up like a princess, I'm not picky), when I'd see him, he'd see me, and we would know there was something special there.

Maybe it wouldn't be love at first sight, but it wouldn't take long before I'd know he was the one.

About three days later we'd decide to make it a "happily ever after."

In my mind, this was the perfect story (however far fetched or unreasonable it may be), and I couldn't imagine anything better.

Until now.

My story wasn't what I had always planned on.
It's better.

It all got started on December 5th with an avocado in the self-checkout line and talking until 3:30 in the morning.

And from that moment on, everything has changed.

He has me mixing up the days of the week, and I have missed more classes than I care to admit.
Because of him I'm always smiling like a complete idiot, no matter what.
He is always on my mind.
I'm either with him or thinking about him when we're not together.
And all I ever think about is how amazing my life is with him in it.
He's made me a better person.
I've learned to care more,
I've learned to let go and just enjoy life as it is.
I've found that there are people in this world worth trusting.
I'm slowly starting to let go of my stubborn independence and let myself depend on him.
Ive come to the point that his happiness is the most important thing to me, and seeing him happy is what makes me happy.
I have found that all my weird rules and quirks don't apply to him.
And what used to be important to me just isn't anymore.
Now my favorite thing to do is just sit with his arms wrapped around me talking about life, sometimes talking about nothing at all.
He's helped me see that life is wonderful and worth living.
He makes me laugh, I mean the uncontrollable, make my stomach hurt kind of laughing.
He makes me feel like I can be myself all the time.
He makes me happier than I ever thought I could be.

And after all of this, I've realized that he has my whole heart, and I have fallen completely, head over heels, perfectly, and wonderfully, in love.

So my fairytale wasn't what I expected.
But this is the way it should be.

Sincerely,

Samantha Dru

This is what you left me

Today, February 5th 2015, the world lost an amazing person.

An amazing father, brother, son, husband, grandfather, and friend.

It hurts, and already I miss him more than words can express.
I will mis the way he laughs.
I'll miss his southern accent that is only there half the time.
I'll miss him teaching me how to survive in the country.
I'll miss his unwavering kindness and love.
And I will miss being called "princess."
I will miss everything about him.
But he left so much to those he left behind.

From you, Grandpa, I learned the importance of forgiveness and moving on.
I learned kindness.
I learned that if I have a goal, I need to work hard until I achieve it.
I learned to stand true and faithful to what I believe.
I learned to never take the easy way out, no matter how hard life gets.
I learned how important it is to always express love and gratitude.
And I learned that losing someone you love hurts so bad, and that is a wonderful, beautiful, and sacred thing.

This is what you left me.

I love you Grandpa.
I will always love you.
And I'll forward to the day we will be together again.

Sincerely, 

Samantha Dru